Inse "cure" ities.

Back with a blog post, I hope I don't bore you guys out x

Insecurities. The one thing girls and guys, really hate to think about. 

Especially us teenagers. We worry about every little thing. 

" Why am I not as tall as her?" " Why is he so popular?"

Well, I'm pretty insecure myself. Not really something to be proud of. I really have one of the worst insecurities I know. I would start to question myself, and continue to demoralize my own self. Its not good, I know, but I can't help it.

I know I should be more appreciative of what I am and what I have, but I have those days where I am extremely emotional. HASHTAGPISCES.

Sometimes, I will stalk girls, really gorgeous girls, and I know most girls have done it too. Don't deny. 

I don't even know why I do that. Honestly. I will go through their instagram photos and all I can think to myself is that, how they're so pretty, popular or rich. And the bad thing is that, I keep doing it. I hurt myself unknowingly by questioning my own appearance. It stabs me in the heart every single time.

Yes yes, I know that other people might compliment you by saying that you are gorgeous, you are sexy and blahblahblah, but you just don't choose to believe them for long. Why? Because they don't see yourself every day, every minute, every second. You have seen your own flaws. Flaws you've been trying to hide from other people so that they don't judge you. Am I right?

Everyone has flaws, but nobody sees them as terrible as you do. You continue to do what I do. You pinch that slightly flabby part of your stomach, while standing in front of the mirror, just thinking - Why am I so fat?

Guys too. Not a lot of people realizes this. Guys has their own insecurities too, we just don't realize this very often because we think guys are strong enough, and don't even think about being insecure at all. Wrong. Guys break down too. We're all human.

Look, I'm not a guy and I have no idea how most of them feel, but I know they have feelings too. I know you have your own insecurities too. I understand.

From the title of this post, you can clearly see I have emphasized the word "cure". Why? Because there is always a cure to your insecurities. Not saying that you can totally get rid of them, but you can stop thinking about them, so that you can be happy.

A little change is not bad at all, if you think you are happy, its fine. 

My own cure may sound weird but it helps me. I will often look at myself in the mirror, and actually compliment my own self. It boosts my mood up, because if I'm not okay with myself, there's a problem. I do it in front of my friends too, but in a joking way, so that they don't think I'm too self centered.

Find your own cure to your insecurities, until it makes you smile and finally accept yourself.

Always appreciate those people who compliments you. Always. And continue to love yourself no matter how many insecurities you face

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Crushes

Have you ever had times when someone had a crush on you? Yes I know, you might think its WAY impossible, but don't deny, you know you've had those days.

You have those times, when the right guy has the same crush you've had on him/her. Buuutttt, sometimes, there maybe those unexpected crushes from other people. You get what I mean? 

Don't get me wrong, I respect people if they have a crush on me ( not being arrogant or anything). But, if they go overboard, I will seriously, SERIOUSLY, feel irritated and annoyed. 

I admire that they show their affection towards you and I admit that is uber duper adorable, but when they show too much affection, worries me. And scares me. Not a little, ALOT.

I don't mind if they talk to you, like if they just want to say hi or ask " How's your day? :)"

But, if they cross the line and get all creepy, that's when I get scared. They act like they are suddenly a part of your life, when they are clearly not.

You will feel the pity for them, I mean, who doesn't? That they spend most of their time trying to get close to you, but you just don't feel the same way. There are TWO types of how you handle this - be a goody goody or a bitch.

A goody goody is the type of person who really doesn't want to hurt the other person's feelings, so you have to be nice to them, even if you do not want to be. Well, being a bitch, is self explainable. You just have to be straight up and tell the person you're not interested. Want to guess which one am I? I'm the goody goody.

Okay, enough about this type of crush. How 'bout the other kind, where you have this crush on someone. You just think that they are so adorable in whatever they do. Like, HELLO, which crush doesn't look cute at least saying hi.

You won't forget how their eyes shine, or how you'll remember the sound of their laughter, the way they walk, the way they smile at you. I know some of you just smiled there, didn't you ;)

Everyone's crush will have different types of memories. Trust me, been there, done that. Do not want to go back there again. 

So, I think, what I'm trying to get across is, crushes will be part of our lives, whether we choose the person or not. 

Have I gone out of point? I think I did. 

Band Picnic '13

So, now basically, new blog and whatnot. This time, I promise myself to keep this blog going. Cross my heart and hope to fly, stick a cupcake in my eye x. Without further ado, let's begin.

We were supposed to meet the whole band @ 12pm in East Coast Park to have some splashing good time.  But of course, my section is always, and I mean, ALWAYS, "fashionably" late.

We were supposed to meet at AMKHub at 0900 to prepare sandwiches, and of course, our darling section members were late. Sigh, we'll never learn our lesson.

While waiting, for Min Yu and Jing Jie, we wanted to prank Jing Jie. Pretending that we were a girl, we SMSed him saying that we wanted to "meet" him in ECP. And oh my freaking god, he totally bought it. He's so gullible. 

And throughout the whole morning, my section mates and I were just secretly laughing behind his back. Are we evil enough? >:)

After buying the necessary ingredients for our sandwiches, made our way to Gerald's house. My darling girl section mate, Min Yu, who is terribly AFRAID of cats, is just jumping around and being paranoid. Oh, did I mention that Gerald has a cat at home? Yeap, he does.

Oh hei, just being glamorous ;) 

 Look at these lazy assholes. 

And of course, there were 9 of us, and only 2 girls (yes, I'm a girl), normally, we do the cooking. And I was abit irritated that those 7 guys were not helping. In Singlish, I would be saying, " Sian, why they so lazy one walao " After cutting off the crust of the bread ( yes we're wasting bits and pieces of food and there are people starving in other countries, I'm really sorry) the guys finally DECIDED to help out. Yay?

Firstly, we had to cook the eggs and luncheon meat, well we kind of failed cutting the slices of luncheon meat, but hey, we didn't care about quality here. We cared about quantity, since there are like 50 over band members coming. I was sooooo glad the guys finally started to help out and cook, and knowing my section guys, THEY SIMPLY LOVE TO COMPLAIN.

Look at that egg. Dayuum.

"Eh, not like that lah! Cannot flip yet!" "Eh! why the luncheon meat cut until so ugly?!" " Gerald! WHERE'S THE SPATULAA!!" Tell me, can you live with these people? Seems like I can. Heh. Oops, did I just forget to introduce them? There's Dylon, Keith, Jing Jie, Kevin, Chu Yeang, Jasper and Gerald. Dylon and Keith are like the Kings of Complains. Sigh.

Okay, enough about this, good things came out of this cooking experience! We bonded slightly more exactly. Without them, my band life would be a bore actually. So after assembling the sandwiches together, it was already 11:30 am. As you can see, we're late. As usual. We boarded the train to City Hall then.

Best Sectionmates EVER.

At City Hall, we coincidentally met up with the Trombones, and got on the train taking us to Eunos. After alighting at Eunos, we waved goodbye to Trombones since they had to wait for someone else. While walking, someone carelessly stepped into the mud. Can you guess which person? Our Darling, Min Yu. Don't worry Min Yu, I still love you even though you're super blur.

We took the bus 13 and alighted in between buildings. Oh, another thing you must know, my sections' sense of direction, sucks. We spent quite some time finding that "haunted underpass" and we finally found it and got to ECP, safely. HOORAY! The adventure's just beginning my dear.

So when we got there, it was freaking hot oh my gooooooodness. We actually had everything planned out, but of course, we didn't follow it. We actually wanted to play Tug o' War first, but, everybody was on the beach playing, oh well! So, we ended up playing skipping with the rope, it was kind of a fail but damn, it was fun! So, I went to play volleyball for awhile, even though I suck at it, hmm. Then it was getting WAY too hot for me to handle and went back to the shade. 

So I went to go skip rope again! And while skipping rope, there was this man just watching us. Damn, I definitely picked the wrong outfit to wear. So, I was just skipping with some girls and decided to ignore that dude. Until, I went to the toilet in Burger King with Xin Yue, then Li Teng came to follow us after like a minute. She told us that the guy followed us inside Burger King. Damnnnn, creepy much. 

Ah, whatever, so Min Yu, Ying Xuan and I went cycling and it was oh so nice. The wind in your hair and enjoying the warmth of the sun on your skin. I really should do this more often. After cycling back,  I wanted some alone time with myself, and just sat down in this bench watching the band members have a good time in the water. Not long after, Nina came. I knew what she wanted to do. She wanted to drag me into the water. I really DID NOT want to be in the water. I didn't want to be wet. ( If you know what I mean *winkwink* okay, I'm joking haha )

In the end, I got dragged in the water and I had my lens on. Good thing they didn't come out or I would've cried. Boo. Well, you know what they say, if you can't beat them,  join them! Took a few pictures with some people and it was soooooooo fun! :) After quite a while in soaking, getting dry and being wet over again, we all finally, FINALLY settled and played some games. 

Anyone familiar with Dog&Bone? Not me! It was Brasses&Perc VS Woodwinds&Double Bass. Let the games begin. It was really a nice sight to see my band bond together :') Before the game ends, bad news just struck the Percussion Section. Dylon broke his arm, and guess where they were? AREA FREAKING F. We were at Area C. Goddamn it Dylon. 

My section had to cycle all the freaking way to Area F, and let me tell you, this was the most excercise I have probably done ALL YEAR. Dylon, you owe me for this shit. I cycled like there was no tomorrow.

Min Yu and I were like at Area E, and we kind of got lost, so we had to ask strangers for directions. And upon reaching Area F, Dylon was NOT EVEN HURT. I imagined there was going to be blood everywhere, but in the end, he only had a splinter and a small cut. SERIOUSLY. SERIOUSLY. Min Yu just cycled off irritated, but I stayed for a while then cycled back. The trip's almost coming to an end.

So after changing into some dry clothings because my shorts were full of sand, I took some photos with my phone and made Dylon and Gerald take unglams with me. Its like my dream to have the section guys camwhore. Hehe. We left at like 6:30 and I was like so freaking tired already, and got home at around 8:15. Well, I got scolded by my mom, but I had to risk abit of scolding to enjoy the fun thorughout the day. So that's what happened. Is this blog post too long? Oops.