You're special

Hey, what's up? So, I still have a few more blog posts which are WAY overdue, but I can't seem to figure out how to work my camera. Oops, sorry, I'm a noob. Back to the point, this post is dedicated to someone who I guess, means alot to me?

Let's go, amigos. ( That rhymed, so clap for me )

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So, this friend of mine, is a really great friend to have. 

He's the best textbuddy I ever had, I guess..? We share a lot of secrets with each other, and its a difficult thing to do since we're the opposite gender and we choose not to really spill out information about ourselves to them much, right?

But, no. The kind of trust I have with this person, is pretty strong hmm. 

So I guess, I can trust him without any problems.

And the way we converse could get me laughing and probably make me become a psychologist in a matter of seconds. Literally. Our topics can range from crushes to gifts and ( believe it or not ) RAPE. If it's offensive to anyone, I apologise, but we were just kidding, okay? :)

For your information, we DO NOT have dirty imaginations, we have SEXY imaginations *winkwink*

C'mon, all those people with sexy imaginations, you feel me don't ya? ;)

Put your hands in the air, and wave them like you just don't care!

"HEY YOU IN THE CORNER, I SAW YOU CARING."

Okay, I'm lame, sorry.

So, back to the point, since we have such interesting topics, our conversations normally end up, never stopping. One thing, I totally like. 
If you don't like these kinds of situations, you're weird.

Other than these funny situations, we have our "emo" moments as well.
We'd share feelings with each other and give advices. Yeah, its pretty simple like that.

He's the type of person who's pretty interesting, if you start a conversation with him.
He's a gemini and I KNOW, Gemini's would never stop talking, but they make this Pisces girl's life more interesting hmmm? :) 

And since I see him almost everyday in school, that company means alot to me.
We'd show each other ugly faces and I like to hit him alot. Really, ALOT. 
You're an easy target and you don't get angry easily, so that's why I like to hit you, but you should know that already. Mer.

I know you may feel irritated with me sometimes, and you'd feel bored when I'm hyper.
But its fine, people has those days too. 

You should know who you are, you little shit. Thank you for handling my bullshit stories and making me laugh and thank you for being such a great person to talk to. 
I could never thank you enough in whatsapp, or even in blogging, since all the things you said to me were memorable things.

Thank you for handling my annoying, hyperactive moments, when I'm feeling bored, or when I hit you alot. I'm sorry for that time when I went overboard.. 
Won't happen again, I promise x

And I feel extremely honoured, that I'm the person whom you trust the most.

And if you're wondering why I'm typing this now, its cause of two reasons. One, you keep pestering me about making another blogpost ( it's done now ) And two, I haven't talked to you, cause you're away and I want to talk to you :( 

So, you better feel special you idiot. Be happy I didn't mention your name, but really, thanks alot :)

If any of my readers can relate to this, well, I feel you too bruh. Or sis. Mer.
Okay, bye bye x

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Don't I matter anymore?

This is a follow up from the previous blog post. Seems like I've been having rough days consecutively. If you haven't read my previous blog post, click here.

So, let us begin my second bad day. 

I feel very useless as of now. What's the point of me, if no one ever listens. 

Am I doing my job right? Because I'm not sure myself. Yes, I posted about my Inse"cure"ities, but let me rant for a while, kay? If you don't want to read on, its fine by me.

I feel like I'm easily ignored. People don't care about me at all. Its like my opinion doesn't matter. I feel so frustrated that all I can do is cry. I haven't cried so much in my life except for the year 2013 - where I think I cried the most.

I'm just, really tired ( excuses teenagers like me, gives ). I'm just surviving, not living. I think its been too damn long since I've actually been happy. I am grateful to what good things God has given me every single day. BUT, it also worries me that I am not able to handle my own self. Why am I so weak?

I can't even stand up for myself. I might as well be invisible and be free.

I just wish people would just listen to me for once, it wouldn't kill them, right?

What would you do if you felt like me right this moment? Some would probably just break down and cry, and maybe some wouldn't even be bothered to do anything.

I want to make a difference somehow. I don't want to be that girl who's just... meh.

I want people to respect me, even if its a little. I know I have to gain their respect first, but won't you feel frustrated too if they don't respect you at all, even though you're giving it your all?

I just can't take it anymore. Months and months feeling this way. I just can't escape from it.

I have been changing, but there's no participation from other people, how are we able to do it together. 

I couldn't take it anymore, I just started to cry because I felt unappreciated. Am I not needed? Because I'll be fine just to walk away from your life. Really. It seems that I'm 

pretty insignificant to you.

No matter how nice I am, how hard I try to please people, it just doesn't work, does it? I'm always the one getting pushed away like I'm nothing. And, I still don't choose to give up. Because I hate it when someone's upset. 

How ironic huh? I dislike seeing someone upset, yet I'm allowing myself to be. 

We'll just see what happens for the next few days, if it gets better, then good, but if it isn't, wasn't expecting it to be anyways.

Moody moody.

Feeling real tired here guys.

Its just after school and I feel like I haven't slept in days. 

Eyes droopy, no energy to even walk and probably the only thing I can do is put my head down.

Everybody has those moody times, right? Where you just feel really emotionless and the atmosphere surrounding you is not helping at all. I am easily affected by how one's attitude is. If they are happy, I'll be happy as well and if they're moody, you guys get the point.

I feel so tired and useless now. Like if anyone just screamed at me right at this moment, I wouldn't even budge a single muscle. 

I'm not usually like this. And I hate this feeling so much. I want to be the person where everybody enjoys hanging out with or making fun of. But, seems like I ain't that girl today.

Why am I irritated so easily? Or stressed, when school just started. I just want to be happy, that's all.

I was quite hyper in the morning, but seems like my mood is being wonky today. 

Oh well, just wanted to voice this out abit. And if you're my section, SECRETLY, reading my blog, hey what's up Damien & Dylon. Just gave you a shout out there.

I'll update with a longer blog post next time, I promise x

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